One of my favorite charities, always honors Nathan... St. Baldricks.org
Showing posts with label Nathan. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Nathan. Show all posts
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
9
Today was Nathan's 9th birthday. I wanted to do something special for his family.. maybe make & sail a few paper-boats off in the sea towards the Prince Islands. Or something. Lingered over what would be appropriate, meaningful, anything.
I can only write that I thought of their family today, as I do often. I have "known" Nathan's family since Susan & I were pregnant back in late 1999. I know Nathan's birth, and heard his soft voice a few times over youtube, and watched him grow and become a sweet, loving, wise brother, son and friend. A wonderful, wonderful boy. I screamed with joy with every clear scan and shed tears with many set backs... His presence in so many lives, many of whom he never even met, still overwhelm us all, and always, always remembering him is the only thing I can do now.
So Nathan... Happy birthday - may you have a glorious one in the gardens of eden. We love you, and will always, always remember you.
I can only write that I thought of their family today, as I do often. I have "known" Nathan's family since Susan & I were pregnant back in late 1999. I know Nathan's birth, and heard his soft voice a few times over youtube, and watched him grow and become a sweet, loving, wise brother, son and friend. A wonderful, wonderful boy. I screamed with joy with every clear scan and shed tears with many set backs... His presence in so many lives, many of whom he never even met, still overwhelm us all, and always, always remembering him is the only thing I can do now.
So Nathan... Happy birthday - may you have a glorious one in the gardens of eden. We love you, and will always, always remember you.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Dilemma
The post below mentions that I am having a hard time writing for this blog. I think I have a hard time writing in Turkish, in general. Maybe it's because my "introduction" to literature was in English and that's what I can't write, or maybe my brain works different or maybe I should read more Turkish novels. No idea. All I know is that every time I sit down to write, the (Turkish) words just seem to escape me...
I have been thinking about switching back and forth and that I should not give up trying to write in Turkish.
A friend of mine (well, an internet friend - we belonged to a pregnancy board together back in 1999) wrote that she is the sole remaining brown eyed family member in their household after her son, Nathan, passed away in July. July 29. July 29 2007. Seven year and one month old Nathan. Nathan was born a week after Arda. I keep reading Susan's blog, and checking back on Nathan's Caringbridge site every day... For some reason, every time I prayed in the past five years, I thought of Nathan. Every time I felt like I hurt my kids' feelings, I thought about Nathan. Though it has not been long since his death, his presence lingers vividly in my thoughts, and I am unable to forget him or his family for that matter... How is it possible that someone that I have never met moves me so? He was a soft spoken child, I think, the only time I heard his voice was when he was starring in a school play singing a few lines about a Blackbird and his mom posted this on her blog.. He read to his two little sisters. He liked construction stuff, especially trucks and Legos. I don't even imagine trying to understand what his family has gone through, or is living through.. And I feel helpless - I cannot do anything to ease their pain and I cannot do anything to bring Nathan back. Writing about him, and not forgetting him, is all I can do.
The only remaining brown eyed member of the family...
I have been thinking about switching back and forth and that I should not give up trying to write in Turkish.
A friend of mine (well, an internet friend - we belonged to a pregnancy board together back in 1999) wrote that she is the sole remaining brown eyed family member in their household after her son, Nathan, passed away in July. July 29. July 29 2007. Seven year and one month old Nathan. Nathan was born a week after Arda. I keep reading Susan's blog, and checking back on Nathan's Caringbridge site every day... For some reason, every time I prayed in the past five years, I thought of Nathan. Every time I felt like I hurt my kids' feelings, I thought about Nathan. Though it has not been long since his death, his presence lingers vividly in my thoughts, and I am unable to forget him or his family for that matter... How is it possible that someone that I have never met moves me so? He was a soft spoken child, I think, the only time I heard his voice was when he was starring in a school play singing a few lines about a Blackbird and his mom posted this on her blog.. He read to his two little sisters. He liked construction stuff, especially trucks and Legos. I don't even imagine trying to understand what his family has gone through, or is living through.. And I feel helpless - I cannot do anything to ease their pain and I cannot do anything to bring Nathan back. Writing about him, and not forgetting him, is all I can do.
The only remaining brown eyed member of the family...
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